Halo. changed blog again. people change your links. thankew you. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DD(:
okay. <3>
this is it. I'm abandoning this. again.
http://livejournal.com/users/rockman_ming

you say I don't understand you. do you understand me?
Friendships are a sort of give and take thing.
look.
forget it ok.
just forget what I said. everything.
there's no point fighting a verbal war none of us can win by blogging. it's like ym's blog part one and your blog part two.
anything okay.
No apologies.
let's just talk.
lemme put it this way.
I was harsh because I thot what you might have done would be stoopid. the end.
and I'm sorry for not comforting you that day when you were crying.
***
now I often am confused. I'm like being taken on a ride on turnstiles and I don't know where I stand. I'm so lost.
Oh man.
maybe that's the way life's sppsd to be.
people take you for rides and drop you off.
why am I so random today. this does not pertain to anyone.
(: peace.

Behind Blue Eyes lyrics
Artist - Limp Bizkit
Album - Results May Vary
Lyrics - Behind Blue EyesNo one knows what it's like

To be the bad man

To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes

And no one knows

What it's like to be hated

To be fated to telling only lies

[Chorus:]But my dreams they aren't as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That's never free

No one knows what its like

To feel these feelings

Like i do, and i blame you!

No one bites back as hard

On their anger

None of my pain and woe

Can show through

To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.
[Chorus]
Discover l.i.m.p. say it [x4]
No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies
[Chorus]
this is what I'm feeling.
screw.

the hardest word on earth

sorry ain't the hardest word on earth.
my legg hurts probably is.
and it really does.
I can't walk.
now mommy, you must understand that why I'm FRIGGIN' BLOODY pissed is because she did not try to understand me. maybe she thot I was saying all that because I didn't have the guts to do whatever she wanted to do, you understand?
I'm sick and tired of being misunderstood.
everyone thinks I'm someone who I AM NOT.
and it's friggin' pissifying.
I know.
I'm a FU**ing Bitch.
but so? what right does that give anyone to hurt me so deeply?
I can apologise.
so what?
I don't think it's right for me to do so, even tho I might have put her down a little too hard. but the fact is that I was trying to dissuade her from doing it so she wouldn't have to face some stoopid consequences!
I'm sick and tired of having people tell me that I'm supposed to be someone who's like an asshole/poseur/act cool loser/sporty/dao and all.
I mean, I'm dao. true. but I have feelings. I'm not the bloody bitch some people always thot I was.
HELL.
I don't Frig care okay.
say whatever you wanna say, do whatever you wanna do.
I'm game for it, honest okay.

I keep feeling like breaking down.
Is it me?
I don't know, maybe I'm really too self-righteous.
This is the first and last time I'm going to let someone hurt me so deeply.
I wasn't feeling bad 'cos of the dance thing.
I mean, I enjoyed playing around, it was kinda fun.
It was the fact that I miss her so muchy and that I'm kinda worried bout her and the OTHER thing which made me upset.
I mean, I did what I did for her good. even tho it sounds dumb. but she just hurt me.
why do I always allow myself to be hurt so bad? I'm never ever going to do it again.
if you want to play the dao-ing game, let's play it. I'm game.
I can always become the cold person I used to be you know.
if you think it's fine, I'm game.
if you don't want to talk to me, fine. I can do it too. I mean, it's easy and I've done it before.
so what's holding me back.
I'm so bloody confused and worried.
well, worried bout her. and I'm missing her too.
I feel lousy, do you know? It's MY fault. happy?
go away.

argh.

I'm on the brink of a serious heart attack.
Just came back from acupuncture therapy thingy.
So I went to get some stuff at Toa Payoh before popping home with my sis.
and then I just stepped out of the shop when someone called my sister's name.
and I looked up @ who she was chatting to.
OMG.
Teo Hui Koon.
and then I freaked out.
Have I mentioned how scared I am of him? I'm hardly scared of teachers, it's usually either like, respect, or simply DETEST ( in the case of THAT woman [tho there are many THAT woman(s)]) (ooh. brackets are like doing algebra. ooh. ) them. and I freaked out on the spot.
so I was thinking like erm...should I run away? and then his li'lest daughter was in the pram sleeping and my sis was telling him about her results in her new school. and then Teo was like "oh, really?" and then my sister told him that he bullied my class. which he had no sarcastic reply to. silence= consent.arghargharghargh.
I feel like screaming.
ooh. my legg hurts. ooh.
ooh is a nice word.
oohoohoohooh!!!(:
D'oh.
what's wrong with me. I'm a spastard.
ooh.

thinking...

I think I'm probably like crapping larh.
OOH. MILLION DOLLAR BABY!!!
watched it last night and the show ended @ abt midnight.
in those 2/12 hours, I CRIED my eyes out.
wow.
it really IS good.
Hillary(?) Swank and Clint Eastwood and Morgan Freeman ALL deserve an Oscar. W00t^^
WATCH MILLION DOLLAR BABY. OR ELSE.
arharharh!!!(:
woke up this morning with puffy and red eyes. and then went for trng.
it was slack.
in addition, there was the fact that we kept re-injuring ourselves. me included. so funn. like real.
OOH. =P

spastarded. (ooh and AC said bastard in class. OOH. -wriggles eyebrows-)

I don’t Feel Good. uhhuhh. I’m sick. (as in both pervvy-sick and ill-sick.) got flu and am slightly feverish. as a matter of fact, since I haven’t fallen ill for quite a while already, I feel Terrible. am breathing smoke. mmm how funn.
ladeedum.
oooh. I love my ahgongchicken. btw, she’s really got sexaayyy leggs. W00ts^^ hurhur.
SCRAWL SCRAWL SCRAWL!!! feel like scrawling random stuff. OOH.
the perfect manga character to me = Hotohori (!!!!)’s looks, Keanu Reeves’ (!!!!) butt ( OOH. sexaayyy tush yarh.), SANZO (!!! HURHUR!!!! EEEE!!!!)’s bod, and ahgongchicken’s OHSOSEXAAYYY leggs.
yepp. there. I’m a perv. true true.
anyway, I’m cute! (and disillusioned, and shameless, and best of all, feverish.)
D’oh. -______-“
Oh AND. I’m a BITCH. woohoo.